I want to thank all of those on my journey the last year during this global pandemic that have taught me just who you are. It wasn’t always pretty but deep down I think I always knew what was on the other side of certain relationships. Nothing like a crisis of epic proportion to bring out people’s true colors. I must say at times it wasn’t a pretty thing to see but then there were those “IT” moments when I was truly surprised (in a good way) because it was almost as if I was seeing a personal relationship through a new lens that inspired me but more importantly made me feel understood, valued and truly seen for the person I truly am. Thanks, I needed that!!!!!
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As the year rolled along, I decided it was time to shed the layers of obligation, duty, can’t, won’t, and if only!! Sometimes it is a daily struggle but my personal “never again” list emerged and it was as freeing as it was and is scary. Letting go of rigid thoughts and beliefs about how things should be or what they should look like is sometimes hard but they only exists in our minds. Mastering our mind as well as our thoughts is sometimes a long lifelong journey but it might also be a place that takes you on the detour you never wanted to go on but needed to for so many reasons.
As we grow up and grow in to ourselves we are bombarded by these unspoken laundry lists of how things should unfold, the order in which they should evolve and how the end result should appear. In the past I envied those that were capable of not only intellectually being able to challenge these rigid notions but actually live by their own rules achieving happiness along the way. I recently stopped apologizing to myself for wanting something different or leading a scavenger hunt to find a deeper meaning. I haven’t always found it in all of the corners I have been exploring but even in some of the dead ends I have gained something and that has meant everything.
I love lists as you may know if you are a regular reader of some of my other blogs but the list of “never again” is personal, so personal in fact I am keeping this one stowed away in that secret place we all have that is just for us. It’s a place we can think anything we want to, be anything we want to and believe anything we want to without others’ judgements, opinions or negative input. It is a list that will constantly evolve and change if we are consciously looking to live our best lives.
Along with my “never again” list is a new one evolving that is starting to really come in to focus with exciting new additions to the list everyday. It’s my “This is me, take it or leave it” list. I think this list has always been there but it was always hiding behind this notion of how I should act, what I should believe and what order things should evolve in my life. It is now officially out of hiding and NO longer cloaked in darkness shoved in the corner closet collecting dust. I am welcoming it with open arms.
Take a journey inward to see if you have any truths that need to come out of hiding and make an appearance. If we learned nothing else from this pandemic, I know we all learned that we only have today and nothing tomorrow is guaranteed or promised. However, let’s not forget we never know what is just around the corner either because.....Well,,,, We don’t.
Cliche’s you ask?? Yes, they were until they weren’t anymore after living our lives the last 12 months.....
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